Do you know what? Sometimes we get so busy with our endless plans, task lists, prioritizing, etcetera that we get to thinking that we are not worthy of love, respect, or consideration until we tick those things off. It is as if we believe that our worth as a person is only determined by our milestones and accomplishments. Do you fall into that trap, too? But it is a flawed way of thinking. Of course we have goals. We have hopes, aspirations, wants, dreams, needs, and more. I was describing to a friend of mine the lost of requirements placed upon me by someone. I was was exasperated, as I was already feeling pulled in 100 directions. She said, “what happens if you don’t do those things?” I said “nothing”. Her point was that I needed to prioritize based on my own need for sanity, respect, etc. I cannot be all things to everyone.
I know by now that each day, I need to know in my heart of hearts that it is well with my soul. Sometimes that means that I fall short of someone else’s expectations. My journey towards wholeness and health has taught me that I must work towards what keeps me close to God. I must nurture my own heart and honor my own priorities. Those priorities sometimes shift dramatically.
I can no longer be strident. Nor can I let my worth be determined by someone else’s yardstick. I must run the race my Shepherd designed for me. Sometimes that will mean that my results look minute or meager. But my heart knows that I am nurturing and caring for myself and others. The rest will happen based on seeds, soil, and how much sunshine my faith, hard work, and optimism bring.
What have you noticed about your own journey lately?