Does your life always stay on an even keel with nothing unexpected? Can you multitask and stay caught up with everything all at the same time? These, of course, are merely rhetorical questions. Twists and turns in our road become our own breathtaking scenery if we remember to believe anyway. Keep believing, even if the signs say detour or road closed.
Those who read my blog are well aware that I cannot multitask when I have a platter overflowing with work. I have been sporadic at best in writing my posts. This year I have increased my tutoring load and working hours by about 25%. As a result, everything else in my life is completely behind. My students are a few weeks away from final exams and then there will be more time.
But you see, the words in my heart still need an outlet. Unfortunately, when I am working so much, I do not take the time to ponder what is in my heart and pull the words from my heart, soul, and mind out of me and onto paper! After a long period of time, my heart, soul, and mind feel downright constipated! For a long time, all that was in my heart was some sorrow from some very unexpected heartbreak. It weighed me down, and altered how I felt about myself. I didn’t like it, but I couldn’t change a thing about it. It added to the typical “workload clutter”. It still leaves me in an altered state, and keeps me on unsteady feet at times. It goes dormant, but rears its head again when life puts me in the paths of the source of the sorrow.
I was praying about that just the other day. I realized once again that taking the time each day to write will reduce my mental clutter and help me focus. So as I stagger through the final weeks of the school year, I hope to write each day. As I said when I began my blog, even if no one reads it or likes it, it brings beauty to my own life to simply create.
The last year and a half have had different sorts of challenges and heartaches. I am still working through those. But the past is only prologue to the present and future. It is not the Berlin Wall. As a matter of fact, my Shepherd guides me still, and today may He continue to guide me in the garden of His heart.
May your gardens be lush, and may the rains fall gently upon you today.