In a recent fortune cookie, I received this aphorism “Courage is not the absence of fear; it is the conquest of it”. I liked it a lot. You see there are times in our lives when we are afraid. Perhaps the future is full of way too many unknowns. We may not know which path to take when it seems there are an infinite number of routes to take. Or perhaps the thing that has to be faced is very, very overwhelming.
Yet, why are we overwhelmed? We know “I can do all things through Christ”. We know to put one foot in front of the other and keep marching. We know if we keep on trying, we can reach the destination. Sometimes they all seem so platitudinal, don’t they? Sometimes if someone says one of those things to me, I feel like saying “oh shut up!” I go all grouchy-smurf!
But really, I know that all of those things are true. I know that I can at least try to conquer the challenge. The conquest is simply the act of conquering. I can say that the conquest of my tendency to self-sabotage my health is met. I do not need the tendency to do that anymore. Past grief and heartache cannot own me any longer because, you see, I was never for sale or lease to begin with. I do not feel as exposed after weight loss as I feared. I am more than half-way to my goal. A large part of my speed-bump/self-sabotage was tied up in grief type experiences and rejection type experiences. Guess what, though?
Grief only gets to carve at us for awhile, but can only keep cutting if we leave the chisel in grief’s hand. God is a far better sculptor, though. His artistry is magnificent. He is the potter and we are the clay. The courage was available from Him all along. “I am weak, but He is strong”– Changes are a’happening. Top photo is before I started making changes. Bottom photo is me a couple of weeks ago.