I am feeling SOOOO lazy today. I still want a longer weekend! Okay—I think I actually want an 8 day week so I still have my 5 days to tutor, but then get 3 days off!
What’s going on in your life right now that’s driving you nuts? I am playing a bit of catch-up in SO many areas of my life. With my evidence-gathering from having my identity stolen, I am already behind.
What is driving me nuts is that I cannot stop time and catch up on everything. I would love to be able to be caught up on everything in the next few days. When my things-to-do list gets 500 miles long, I want to stop time, get every single thing done, give myself a major pat on the back, and then put my feet up.
My sensible self tells me that is impossible, and to set a reasonable goal and congratulate myself for meeting it. But sometimes setting a realistic goal (like for instance getting 3 things done from my list), then getting those things done and congratulating myself for it feels like….well…congratulating myself for the major accomplishment of putting my shoes on and tying them all in the same day. It seems like an artificial accomplishment. So, to answer the question, what is driving me nuts?? I am driving myself nuts.
Why do I do that? Why do I run in circles and bark—that is really what i am doing, isn’t it? It is silly, ridiculous, and incredibly time consuming. I feel as though I am watching myself and i am behaving like Jack Nicholson in As Good as it Gets when he keeps repeating the same self-defeating behaviors. But he, at least, had a psychological explanation for it. With me, I wonder if I angst over it because I just don’t want to make myself get started….Do i feel that if i can’t get it all done it isn’t worth beginning? Gracious, I tell my students to put in 10 minutes at a time if necessary. If they do that 6 times, they will have put in the hour and be closer to completion…..that’s my vent.
I suppose we need to take mini-mental vacations each day; make the most of our days off. But there ARE days when I miss the days of childhood when I could throw myself on the lawn to find clovers and flowers to weave into necklaces and chains. Yes there were chores, but oh gosh—I sure knew how to relax! But adults have many things to handle, and perhaps that is the difference.
Amid our responsibilities and worries though, we as adults have a hard-wired need/hunger to metaphorically jump in mud puddles, make daisy chains, have a s’more….hence, Sunday IS to be a day of rest! I would love to have 2 Sundays each week. As I said, I’d like an 8 day week!
Guess what? Next weekend I get my wish! :-). Hello daisy/clover chains!! Now all I need to do is find a field of clovers or daisies…… I may not find one. But I vow here and now to find a way to have restorative joyous relaxation!