Some days feel more symbolic than others. I ran into a friend of mine at church and she noticed that I had lost weight. That made me feel good. Not in a vain way, like in the past, but in a lovely way. You see, each day I am feeling less inclined to sabotage myself. This is indicative of some internal change.
I feel a bit less in need of having excess weight to hide behind. By now I have been exercising and eating right since 6/27. That is about 5 1/2 weeks and I have lost 12 pounds. More importantly than the weight and the exercise is that some of the internal emotional wounds have begun to heal. Some of the sorrow that caused some of the wounds is no longer welcome here. Yes there was loss and hurt. But I am no longer willing to have those things hold me back.
I cannot have those painful past things define my future joyous possibilities. I want my possibilities back; even though by now some of those possibilities by necessity are re-defined. How do I gain possibilities in my life? By deciding one day at a time that I still have plenty of chances for my own brands of joy and triumph. So today, this day, I shall skip and leap and dance with joy.
In looking back over past sorrows and speed bumps I can also see that I have grown and changed more than I realized. I bet if you were to examine the past years you would see that too. That is what has propelled me forward to make these fresh changes in my life. Will I sustain my effort~~ YES. How do I know? As I said~I want my possibilities back. Life is definitely good.
God is with me every step of the way. And oh boy, have my blogging friends been supporting me. Thank you! So take a look below at my sunset/sunrise picture. You see the sun is setting on my speed bumps. It is rising on a gorgeous shore line.