I have often heard it takes two weeks to form a new habit. It takes me longer than that to change my mindset. I have been on my lifestyle change in eating and exercising for 18 whole days. I have eaten correctly every day (except for going a bit crazy on one dinner out when a friend was in town). I have exercised every day but the day she was in town. In the case of that day, I made up for the missing exercise and the excess food the very next day. I still have a mountain in front of me.
Do I believe these changes have become a permanent part of my psyche at this point? Not by a long stretch. My determination to stick to it is unflagging. I have my determination to rediscover the me that loves to have a flying heart when it comes to this part of my life. I can no longer compartmentalize~it is too hard and is an unsuccessful strategy. I have come upon some of the reasons behind my habit of hiding behind my weight, and my tendency to purposely NOT exercise. At some point I will no doubt blog about the underlying “stuff” but not yet. I need to analyze it first—and get the mental infection OUT! How?
First I have to examine those things fully and through prayer and changing that mindset, make new ways. I cannot fall down the precipice again! But know this if you find yourself tripping over the same impediments. God is there in your sorrow, He awaits to help you with His outstretched hand. He will lift you above the things that broke or break your heart. You are not alone.
“Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand”.