In my life as a tutor it has become rare for me to have a non-Sunday off. It had begun to make me feel very stressed. I am falling behind on all the tasks involved with running a household, and never taking time to re-group. When that goes on for awhile, God handles my schedule for me. Students suddenly cancel their sessions for a few days, giving me a chance to catch up and rejuvenate. That feeling I get at those times reminds me of my childhood.
Do you remember that lovely feeling that came on the last day of school? My girlfriends and I would literally skip out of school on that last day. We had plans for the summer, oh did we have plans! My family would go boating on the Mississippi River many evenings when dad got home from work until nightfall. In MN in the summer darkness didn’t hit until nearly 10 o’clock. We would water ski and swim. We’d have a campfire on a sandbar and toast marshmallows. We’d see the sunset and count the stars and identify the constellations. We’d duck the mosquitoes at dusk. The feeling I remember from toasting marshmallows is a feeling I cherish to this day. My mom and dad would hold theirs far enough above the flames that theirs always came out that lovely tan. I had no patience back then. I would start out doing that, but sooner or later I would plunge that marshmallow into the flames, charring the outer layer. The advantage to that method is that you could pop the charred layer off and roast the inner layer!
During the day my neighborhood friends and I would put on plays for the neighbors, play house, play tag, play kick the can, hopscotch, jacks, Red Rover, jump rope, swim at the lake, ride bikes, and go to the library. Sometimes in the afternoon we could be found in a backyard on our backs looking at the clouds and daydreaming. Such delight for all of us in all of these pursuits. Totally unstructured time except for a few weeks of 1 hour swim lessons. Unstructured time……..I crave that; yet I also crave being “caught up” on my tasks. It is a balancing act, isn’t it? Just as in algebra, if you do something to one side of the equation, it affects the other side too. to everything there is a season, says Ecclesiastes; I proclaim this week to be a week of renewal, restoration, and recharging.
I have been preparing my home a bit these past few weeks in case my mom does move in with us for awhile or the long haul. Decisions have yet to be made, but I have prepared a room for her. All that remains on that front is to move the bed that is in that room to another room and procure a hospital bed. But the bookcases and file cabinets have been relocated to other areas. I even prefer the new way to the old way. Now I just have to file away some stacks of paperwork, and organize some other miscellaneous stuff. But happily, those tasks can be broken up into smaller one hour chunks.
So with this brief respite of free time I am hoping to:
- help my son with his resume and help him launch his job search. He needs a job, and is kind of “frozen” in his search. He and I have both been a bit “stuck” and directionless in launching the search.
- complete my delayed spring cleaning (or do my fall cleaning early)
- work on my anti-bullying book and
- take time each day to walk with God–pray, dream, and look at the cloud pictures