There is a song based on psalm 90 that I know. The title is In Ev’ry Age. In the midst of my procrastination part of the song came back to me. I am going to adapt it here so it says me instead of us—but the actual song says us. Here is the part of the song that really formed in my heart today.
“Teach me to make use of the time I have.
Teach me to be patient even as I wait.
Teach me to embrace our ev’ry joy and pain.
To sleep peacefully, and to rise up strong.
In ev’ry age, O God, you have been my refuge. In ev’ry age, O God, you have been my hope.”
OK, so I have asked God to teach me. But I think I am going to ask Him to teach me all of this without Him adding to my lengthy list…can I micromanage God? No! But I do need to tell Him I don’t think I am quite ready to go pro—not just yet! You see, years ago I prayed for patience. Since then there have been all KINDS of opportunites to stretch my patience and try to improve it! God has QUITE a sense of humor!
I really want to sleep peacefully and rise up strong. How else can I have strength for the day—especially if I sleep fitfully and wake up angry and weak? Oh yeah—now i remember. I can begin by giving the day to God….and putting myself in His wise and loving hands. Can I teacher teach students when the students are messing around, being uncooperative, and acting strong-willed and cranky? As the kids say “duh….no!” I must, must, must breathe deeply and paddle my canoe steadilly.
Oh–teach me Lord…bless me with a willing, steadfast, gentle heart today. Then take me by the hand and let me see your world through your eyes…it and you are truly magnificent.