I love springtime. Such a time of renewal and rebirth. The longer I live, the more I appreciate the promises of spring. Spring has Easter and spring has new pretty flowers. Even in the desert there are springtime flowers. No, it isn’t all just brown sand and cactuses! Anyway, over the weekend this cute bird (don’t know what kind) perched on one of the chairs at my patio table and entertained us with his chirps, tweets, and songs for hours. I had the screen door open, so it was a lovely show for all of us (kitties included).
It eased my stress and worries for awhile. It reminded me that those who hurt or reject me cannot keep me down, because God’s love will sustain me. He sustains each of us. All we have to do is fly into His arms. Even though I am far from lakes, rivers, and oceans I can go there in my mind. A few hours ago I broke my own little rule and posted something political. I already regret it because it kind of disoriented me. The purpose of my blog is to keep me focused on God—and help me to stay positive and optimistic in today’s world. Each of us has our struggles in staying positive. There are people that get me shook up and make me doubt my own worth and value. Does that happen with you? Intellectually I know that I shouldn’t let that happen. My value and worth come from God as gifts—and others’ opinions of me cannot change my value to God. If I remember to hang on to that concept with all my strength on the tough days, I cannot drown…..but oh boy is it tough some times.
I remember a particularly difficult time when I was in college. I was a freshman and was having a hard time with some of the girls on my floor in my dorm. A bunch of them were emotionally bullying me. It just about destroyed me….then another girl came to my defense and stood up to them. She really did—and I hardly knew her at the time. Her defense of me helped me to know that i wasn’t worthless. The bullies never did befriend me. But they stopped bullying me. However, I began to feel a bit better about myself. Ricky Nelson around that time came out with the song “Garden Pary”….and for some reason at that it really struck a chord with me and gave me strength.
That summer I went on a retreat and met a whole new crowd of friends. I was welcomed with open arms. Life changed. Things got better. I went back to campus sophomore year and was open to new friends. I got some! These days when I feel rejected or ridiculed or minimized I try to remember….that I have worth…from God…and even though someone heartily disagrees with me I still have worth….
I try to remember lovely times, lovely moments, and supportive things that people have done—-and I smile. I feel hugged and loved. That helps me step forward and keep on climbing….wishing each of you love….I thank all people who make me feel safe…..and you know who you are!