Postaday topic #30: It’s time to vent

Topic #30

What’s going on in your life right now that’s driving you nuts? I am playing a bit of catch-up in SO many areas of my life. What is driving me nuts is that I cannot stop time and catch up on everything. I would love to be able to be caught up on everything in the next few days, because I have some major work-events to prepare for on top of everything else. I don’t say that to ask for pity or attention. But when my things to do list gets what feels like 500 miles long, I want to stop time, get every single thing done, give myself a major pat on the back, and then put my feet up. My sensible self tells me that is impossible, and to set a reasonable goal and congratulate myself for meeting it. But sometimes setting a realistic goal (like for instance getting 3 things done from my list) and then getting those things done and congratulating myself for it feels like….well…congratulating myself for the major accomplishment of putting my shoes on and tying them all in the same day. It seems like an artificial accomplishment. So, to answer the question, what is driving me nuts?? I am driving myself nuts.

Why do I do that? Why do I run in circles and bark—that is really what i am doing, isn’t it? It is silly, ridiculous, and incredibly time consuming. I feel as though I am watching myself and i am behaving like Jack Nicholson in As Good as it Gets when he keeps repeating the same self-defeating behaviors. But he, at least, had a psycholical explanation for it. With me, I wonder if I angst over it because I just don’t want to make myself get started….Do i feel that if i can’t get it all done it isn’t worth beginning? Gracious, I tell my students to put in 10 minutes at a time if necessary. If they do that 6 times, they will have put in the hour and be closer to completion…..that’s my vent. I could go into all kinds of political stuff that drives me crazy—-but i am not in the mood to do that today!

About Kate Kresse

I love to write, I love to talk, I love to uplift people when I can. I am a woman in love with life. I am a wife, mom, tutor, writer, and I am a perennial optimist. (OK not every single minute but you get the point! :-)
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